We are just a little shy of 6 weeks out from our trip to Asia. Lily and I have been doing much to prepare. Team meetings and passports and visa paperwork and prayer and vaccines and fund raising. Did I mention prayer? Much and most importantly, prayer. While we have been doing much to prepare, even more so, God has been doing much to prepare. I find that He does so much behind the scenes work through the time we spend with him in quiet and in prayer. I also find that He does much work when I am not even asking, and not even noticing for that matter. He has definitely been working in me. He has broken me in some places I was not prepared for. He has torn down walls I didn’t really realize I had. He is shaping and reshaping my heart. And I see Him shaping Lily’s as well. And that is pure joy, as a mom, to just sit back and watch.
As I mentioned in my initial post about our mission trip, I have a deep longing in my heart for the orphaned. I have always had a picture in my head of what it might look like to adopt. What it would feel like to love a child that has not known the love of a family before. What it would look like to share the Love of the Lord with a child that may not have ever known it otherwise. It’s always just been one of those things that I dreamt of. Kind of like when you are a little girl dreaming of your wedding day and having kids of your own, this was just always part of those dreams and aspirations for me. I have dreamt of faces and skin tones and ages and countries of origin. Since I have always had a heart for orphans, I have asked on many occasion “What God, do YOU want for me to do with this love I have for the Fatherless?”
To be honest, I had (and still have) some predispositions of my own. I still don’t know what it looks like in it’s fullness. But I KNOW that He has called me to serve the orphan. (James 1:27) I have found that more and more, He is doing away with my predispositions and replacing them with His heart and will for His children. One of the things he has been teaching me is how to see them and love them like He sees and loves them. Beautiful and Perfect and made in His image. Just the way they are. Loving each and everyone for their delicate little intricacies and gifts and bents. A lot of which He has already taught me through this journey of being a mom.
One of the preconceived notions I had was that I would go to Africa to serve orphans. I have no earthly idea why. I just always felt pulled there. Never been there before, but I just knew that if ever went anywhere it would be there. But God took my desire and exchanged it for His. Africa in exchange for Asia. For now at least. I still have no idea why He chose Asia for me. However, I do know this. He is working things far bigger and better than I could imagine. So, for such a time as this, my love is going to China. Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen. (Ephesians 3:20)
I designed this “Love China” print to help raise funds for our trip. I got an overwhelming response for them as well as custom requests for others who currently have hearts bent for other countries. Here are all of the designs I have done so far in my “Love All Nations” Collection. If you have a country that God has bent your heart towards and you want one, just make a special request.Etsy Shop: API reponse should be HTTP 200
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